emma stranger
a song for survivors of sexual violence
DESPERADO - continuous take!
DESPERADO - continuous take!
🐍🚧 Work In Progress: This section lags in the middle.
Needs more Johnny Cash.
Still - proof that I can sing like this all the way through. I need musical help yes - what artist doesn’t benefit from help? AS A SINGER I AM THIS BITCH THO
ft. Rihanna, Raghav, Tesher, Johnny Cash & MEEEEEE✨
“Remember, little lady: it’s important to follow your heart. everyone’s wrong sometimes. always do your best and be kind to others. it’s okay to be wrong - just learn and try to be better next time.”
— Gramma Dindie, an incredible story-teller with a beautiful soft voice that sounds just like my singing (and speaking) voice now
Wednesday
Part of a poem I wrote for my eighth grade English class about two weeks after my Papa’s funeral. Featuring Annalisa, Aria, Paul Schwartz, Eurythmics, and Jimmy Eat World.
I’d love to upload this to Spotify but their design team despises humanity. It’s been a rough time and I have no brain cells to spare to battle with their mangled traffic jam of an interface. Listen on this website because Spotify punishes sad bitches like me.
Songs of love, loss, and heartbreak
The poem I wrote after my papa’s funeral when I was fourteen years old.
☀️ Music video: You’re Not Alone
💿 Protest Song
believe rape survivors
Pay-What-You-Like Download
Pay-What-You-Like Download
“Cash rules everything around me” and I have serious money-related traumas. I have negotiated for the monetary value of my Papa’s life with United Healthcare Inc. Medical bankruptcies kept me in a job I’d burned out of and didn’t like. Right now I CANNOT FIND MY LAPTOP CHARGER ANYWHERE.
If you can afford to pay to download this track, please do. Free for everyone to use to say that they believe that horrible things happen to innocent people. This is an open tip jar. Thank you!
I want to earn money from my work. To be honest, I feel uncomfortable accepting money from my family. Right now I have no income which scares the hell out of me.
🎧 Listen online or download a remix copy for free 😻
As a nerd, I want us to have a society that’s basically Star Trek. I believe in balancing the needs of the many and my own best interests. Songs I write myself or art that takes a lot of time, sure I’d like to earn money from.
This is a mashup cover of a classic. Featuring Nina Simone, Felix da Housecat, and Sophie Tukker. Since I plopped down on the bed in a lovely Brooklyn place 👑(BROOKYLN 4EVA) lovely then this one’s free to download or remix.
✨Say a little prayer
🎷Watch on this website for now, might upload a downloadable copy later.
damn it feels good to be a nerdy little girly gangsta
fuck record companies, i made me a website and now:
valhalla
Queens of the Night
Queens of the Night
Full Video coming soon:
Featuring Whitney houston, ATB, topic, a75
What is it about us Saint Louis girls?
I swear, it’s like we’re born cursed.
Girls as sweet as summer rain
Somehow born to
Sing the blues
Featuring Lonely the Brave, Childish Gambino (ft. Lindsay Lohan), Enya, Meat Loaf, Lindsey Stirling, Nelly Furtado, Train & Queen
Liberty Remix
I wouldn’t lie about something as horrible as rape.
Who here is an angel?
I know my flaws quite well. My hot takes sometimes suck, I’m a shitty housekeeper, I cry easily, sometimes I get angry, my jokes land awkwardly sometimes but I do my best to never be cruel. I don’t deceive people intentionally - when I learn I’m wrong, I say so. (Takes me a bit to learn but that’s human.)
I would not falsely accuse another person of rape.
Violence, rape, maiming, silencing, blackmail, coercion, bribery, murders happen all over the planet. I don’t know who is to blame for what. All I know is my own memories, hopes, fears, dreams and heartbreaks. I know that it is a universal cycle that can be broken but so far still spins on.
I am no innocent.
I am a sinner. An annoying dumbass bitch.
I still believe in freedom, peace, love, justice and hope.
We dream the same dreams, don’t we? Mostly? Specifics vary of course but:
We dream the same dreams.
Deep down, I think most of us share the same hopes. It’s just that people will sometimes lie because they must protect someone they love. I am a woman with no children, no… well I don’t know my family history but there’s no one younger than me to protect in my family. Blackmail doesn’t hit the same way when you’re the last woman standing.
Who, exactly, can be threatened? I can be threatened bodily with violence, rape, torture, and maiming. That already happened to me for the crime of being born into a desirable body. Further threats don’t carry quite the same power. A girl gets used to what’s done over and over and over and over again. Do we all? I don’t know. I’ve only ever lived like this.
I am grateful for my freedom, but the pain i have known should never happen to anyone ever again.
ANYWAY THANKS BABY
BYE FOR NOW I’M TOO BROKE TO MAKE THIS WEBSITE LOOK PURDY
families all over the world knew how frequently a terrible cycle of violence repeats itself.
As a girl raised by a nice couple in Saint Louis who were (as far as I knew) “just” software engineers. My Papa’s business encountered many failures. Specifically forgetting to file paperwork and keep things organized which is relatable.
I want to clarify that kids ain’t safe anywhere. In the past, parents take the fall for any harm that befalls their families which — look, I’m not a forensic psychologist but it makes no logical sense to my little brain. If parents despised their children they could give those kids up for adoption. In my humble opinion family members are an easy target to pin deaths on - the longer the same crap gets written in textbooks the longer law enforcement follows those rules. (I get a sneaking sense that most people in detective work know more than I do but… well, I’ll leave that to them.)